[He's doing his best, but his English still isn't amazing and he's not entirely sure what Nathan is saying, but he's trying so, so hard.
But give him his phone? Yeah, he can understand that. He remembers Nathan dropped it before laying down, so Toki pulls away juuust enough to grab the phone before he goes back to where he was and hands it over.]
( fine, he guesses if he can't say it now, he'll just have to go back to a time when he could say it.
so, cue the voicemails, and don't look at nathan as he plays them: )
Heeeeeey, Toki! Tooookiii. Where— Where are you? Where'd you go? I want you here. 'Cause I like you. I like hanging around you and stuff. Gonna look for you, I guess.
BEEP!
Toki, it's me. It's Nathan. I just wanted to say... that you're my favorite pal. But, shhh. Shhhhhhh! Don't tell the others that. They're gonna get all weird. You know? Weird.
BEEP!
Hey, it's Nathan again. I know I called you my pal, but you're not. Okay? You're not my pal. You're more than that.
BEEP!
Gonna hold my breath forever 'til you show up.
BEEP!
( panting noises, that's it, that's the message. )
BEEP!
Ran outta breath.
BEEP!
I love you, so come over here and pal around with me. I mean that. I mean that, Toki. I love you. I love all of you dumb, trash, racoon dildos.
BEEP!
Woah, I said I love you. What the fuck. Did you hear me? Did you hear me just now??? That was me!
BEEP!
Hey, I know what I said. I said I love ALL of you, but... I mean, I really love you. I just like the other ones. They're okay, I guess.
BEEP!
That was kinda fucked up, what I said. I love them too. They're more than okay.
BEEP!
But I love you for real.
BEEP!
Are you under the
BEEP!
Bed. Not under here. Fuck.
BEEP!
Get here. Make out with me.
BEEP!
( sounds of someone peeing, hopefully into a toilet. )
BEEP!
Hey. Hey. Heeey. Hey. Toki. Hey. H—
BEEP!
Gonna find you... somehow. Somewhere. Gotta be here.
[Toki's not sure what Nathan's gonna do with his phone at first, maybe order pizza or something, but soon enough the familiar voicemails start playing. Ah, maybe he's trying to decide which one Toki's allowed to keep. So he listens, trying to pick out his favorite, but as he listens, he starts putting two and two together.
The stuff he'd been saying kind of sounds like love if you think about it, right?
Maybe he's playing the voicemails to show that he means it?
The messages haven't even finished playing by the time Toki's positioned himself so he's staring into Nathan's eyes, or at least trying to, and he leans in to press his lips against Nathan's.
( he doesn't want to be perceived; he wants to disappear into the void forever. but there's toki, clearly perceiving him, looking down at him, meeting his eyes when nathan would rather look into the sun.
god, this is brutal.
kissing is better, somehow. he kisses back, hand coming up to twine in his hair, while his voice continues to play from the phone beside him.
hey. i folded this old receipt into a worm. i found it. i found a receipt, now it's a worm. when i find you, you should totally 's' my 'd'. just kidding. unless. what do you think about marriage and kids and babies and stuff? just asking. are you in the toilet? is that where you're hiding? um, hello, police? i need to find toki wartooth. )
[Okay, now that Toki's listening to all of this stuff play out again... he can understand why Nathan wants him to delete it. It's kind of a lot.
But, like, it's cute. He shouldn't have to delete the cute stuff!!
It's fine, though, because if the outcome is that he gets to kiss Nathan, and also he got to hear him say he loves him, then he doesn't need to keep all of that. Even if he wants to. If he has to get rid of it all in the end, it'll all still be worth it.
Eventually, he pulls away, just enough so he can talk.]
( nathan does not look any less red. if anything, after every kiss, nathan looks closer to exploding than before. )
Toki, Toki, okay... ( the flow of knives is stronger than it's ever been. )
I'll pal around with you until the fucking end of time if you let me delete them. And never talk about them again.
( Tooooooookiiii, I neeeeeeeed you. If you're dead, I'll fucking kill you. more pissing. Hey. Listen to this. Listen to this cool noise I can make. Ready? Wheeeerppp. Did you hear it? Wheeeeerrrp. )
[Hmmmmm... successful experiment. It's kind of funny to see Nathan look this red. He kisses him right on the forehead before laying back into just cuddling with Nathan instead.]
You can deletes 'em. But I'm never gonna forgets what you saids...
[It'd be a damn shame if Nathan was the latest victim to Toki's whole death thing, but for now, when he cuddles him, he still seems to be warm and breathing, so that's okay.
He's just a little bummed out when Nathan goes for his phone, but it's okay, he said it was okay. Toki basically has the memory of Nathan saying all that mushy shit burned into his brain, so he'll live.]
( it’s not clear what’s got nathan in such a good mood. it might be the fact that he feels like something’s been lifted off his chest, or the way he’s feeling in accepted even at his lamest, gayest form. but… it’s nice. this feels nice.
so he hugs toki close and alternates between kissing his cheek and making deep, ridiculous “wherp-wherp” sounds near his ear. )
[This might be the life??? You got cuddling, you got kissing, and you got fun silly noises, which are all really great in Toki's book. Toki's laughing pretty hard, but he has to stop, because maybe it's his turn, actually.]
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[He's doing his best, but his English still isn't amazing and he's not entirely sure what Nathan is saying, but he's trying so, so hard.
But give him his phone? Yeah, he can understand that. He remembers Nathan dropped it before laying down, so Toki pulls away juuust enough to grab the phone before he goes back to where he was and hands it over.]
Heres.
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so, cue the voicemails, and don't look at nathan as he plays them: )
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The stuff he'd been saying kind of sounds like love if you think about it, right?
Maybe he's playing the voicemails to show that he means it?
The messages haven't even finished playing by the time Toki's positioned himself so he's staring into Nathan's eyes, or at least trying to, and he leans in to press his lips against Nathan's.
That's gotta be understanding enough.]
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god, this is brutal.
kissing is better, somehow. he kisses back, hand coming up to twine in his hair, while his voice continues to play from the phone beside him.
hey. i folded this old receipt into a worm. i found it. i found a receipt, now it's a worm.
when i find you, you should totally 's' my 'd'.
just kidding. unless.
what do you think about marriage and kids and babies and stuff? just asking.
are you in the toilet? is that where you're hiding?
um, hello, police? i need to find toki wartooth. )
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But, like, it's cute. He shouldn't have to delete the cute stuff!!
It's fine, though, because if the outcome is that he gets to kiss Nathan, and also he got to hear him say he loves him, then he doesn't need to keep all of that. Even if he wants to. If he has to get rid of it all in the end, it'll all still be worth it.
Eventually, he pulls away, just enough so he can talk.]
Welps... you founds me!
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Yeah.
You can keep the toilet one.
( the least incriminating of the bunch. )
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[That's not a very good prize! Instead, Toki's just gonna kiss Nathan's face a bunch. Maybe that'll help with stuff.]
I don'ts gots to keeps any if you keeps pallin's around with me like this.
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Toki, Toki, okay... ( the flow of knives is stronger than it's ever been. )
I'll pal around with you until the fucking end of time if you let me delete them. And never talk about them again.
( Tooooooookiiii, I neeeeeeeed you.
If you're dead, I'll fucking kill you.
more pissing.
Hey. Listen to this. Listen to this cool noise I can make. Ready? Wheeeerppp. Did you hear it? Wheeeeerrrp. )
Ever.
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You can deletes 'em. But I'm never gonna forgets what you saids...
[Even if he doesn't mention it! He'll know!]
Huh... that ams a cool noise.
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Oh, thank fuck.
( and he immediately reaches for toki's phone to begin deleting, feeling better for it. )
What noise? ( he looks up. ) The wheeerp noise?
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He's just a little bummed out when Nathan goes for his phone, but it's okay, he said it was okay. Toki basically has the memory of Nathan saying all that mushy shit burned into his brain, so he'll live.]
Yeah! It was really goods!
[It was, in fact, a very good noise.]
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( he pauses his act of mass deletion. )
Hey... Hey, Toki.
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Yeah? Whats, Nathans?
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( let's hope no one thought he might actually have something important to say— )
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Ha! Ohhhh, you dids it! You dids it, Nathans!
[Excuse him, he needs to crack up about it for a second.]
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so he hugs toki close and alternates between kissing his cheek and making deep, ridiculous “wherp-wherp” sounds near his ear. )
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Oh, lets me tries, lets me tries! Wherps!
[It's the thought that counts.]